Chapter 14
I stared out the passenger seat window of Connie’s car. I wondered how many times my life could be ruined. It was almost comical. Another question. If God loves me so much… why would he make so many terrible things happen to me? Connie nor I said anything on the way there. What would we say? Elizabeth stayed silent as well. She was never the first to speak. It didn’t take long to get to Connie’s house. When we got there, I opened the passenger’s door and got Eliza and I's bags out of the back.
“Ready to come inside?” I asked her, as she struggled to unbuckle her seatbelt.
“Where’s Daddy?” Was the only thing she said.
I didn’t answer. What was I supposed to say?
We walked into Connie’s house. Jules came from the living room and we hugged. “You heard then?”
She nodded. “We need to talk.”
“Okay.”
We went upstairs to Jules’ room. She sat on the bed.
“I don’t know how to start… I’m afraid you’ll be upset.”
“Well this day’s been pretty terrible so far. What’s going on?”
“Connie and I were talking last night. I asked her some of the questions we had been talking about…”
“Okay.”
“And um- I asked Jesus to come into my heart." Tears glistened in her eyes when they locked with mine.
“You’re a Christian?”
“Yeah. Are you upset? I- I didn’t have time to talk to you- “
“I’m not upset. You didn’t have to ask me.”
“Okay.”
“Are you happy?” I asked.
“Heh. Not happy… it’s better than happy. I don’t know, joy? Yeah. I’m really joyful. And- and I just want to tell everyone about Jesus and- heh. It's hard to explain,” she laughed.
“That’s- really cool.”
“Yeah. It is. So where are you with the whole God thing? I’ve been trying to figure out- “
“I don’t know. Honestly… I- I don’t know. With Eugene and everything… it’s just. Confusing.”
“Yeah. I’m really sorry by the way.”
“Huh. You know, I thought it was gonna get easier. I was living with a good family. I wasn’t afraid of the people in authority over me. But this. I feel like I’m dreaming most of the time.”
“Hm. Can- heh. Sorry, I’ve never asked anyone this before... Can I pray for you?”
“Actually, that’d be really great.”
“Ready to come inside?” I asked her, as she struggled to unbuckle her seatbelt.
“Where’s Daddy?” Was the only thing she said.
I didn’t answer. What was I supposed to say?
We walked into Connie’s house. Jules came from the living room and we hugged. “You heard then?”
She nodded. “We need to talk.”
“Okay.”
We went upstairs to Jules’ room. She sat on the bed.
“I don’t know how to start… I’m afraid you’ll be upset.”
“Well this day’s been pretty terrible so far. What’s going on?”
“Connie and I were talking last night. I asked her some of the questions we had been talking about…”
“Okay.”
“And um- I asked Jesus to come into my heart." Tears glistened in her eyes when they locked with mine.
“You’re a Christian?”
“Yeah. Are you upset? I- I didn’t have time to talk to you- “
“I’m not upset. You didn’t have to ask me.”
“Okay.”
“Are you happy?” I asked.
“Heh. Not happy… it’s better than happy. I don’t know, joy? Yeah. I’m really joyful. And- and I just want to tell everyone about Jesus and- heh. It's hard to explain,” she laughed.
“That’s- really cool.”
“Yeah. It is. So where are you with the whole God thing? I’ve been trying to figure out- “
“I don’t know. Honestly… I- I don’t know. With Eugene and everything… it’s just. Confusing.”
“Yeah. I’m really sorry by the way.”
“Huh. You know, I thought it was gonna get easier. I was living with a good family. I wasn’t afraid of the people in authority over me. But this. I feel like I’m dreaming most of the time.”
“Hm. Can- heh. Sorry, I’ve never asked anyone this before... Can I pray for you?”
“Actually, that’d be really great.”