@Starflower I've experienced the same thing, but to a much more exaggerated extent. I believe there's something very spiritual about fear. 2 Timothy 1:7 makes me think there must actually be a sort of "spirit of fear", and obviously this spirit doesn't come from God (according to Timothy), so it must come from somewhere else. I think fear is a very demonic thing, and it's something I was spiritually oppressed with for many years when I was younger.
My family and I didn't live in the same house we do now back then, and I'm pretty convinced there's a sort of spirit of fear that inhabits that place- but I'm getting ahead of myself. The house itself is already in a pretty nasty part of town; It's surround by ancient living spaces that all seem to be full of people that you'd generally consider creepy, and you'd have good reason to. There were mentally insane people (one with a hook for a hand), violent drunkards, and generally nasty people who would nearly bite your head off if a few leaves from your yard fell onto theirs. You'd have plenty of reason to be scared by the interior of the house as well, as it was crawling with centipedes and cockroaches, and was built in the 1800's. All of these factors, though, cannot account for the unquestionably spiritual fear that inevitably haunted me every night.
I don't remember exactly when or how it started, but I am certain it progressively got worse time slowly slogged on. It got to the point where I actually began crying at around 4 every afternoon because I had already begun to feel overcome with the dread of getting into bed and tossing and turning for hours as the demonic mental pictures in my head grew more and more vile. Eventually, I'd find a way to wander from the frenzied panic of the terrifying entities I imagined (and very well may have) surrounded me, to a deep sleep that served as a sufficient enough balm to help me at least half forget the intensity of the feat the gripped me the night before.
I'm quite confident this sort fear anything from "natural" fear, if there is such a thing. It's likely that all fear roots in something spiritual, but I'm not well enough connected to the spirit world to be able to make and claims definitively. The biggest reason I believe it was a demonic force that dwelt specifically in that house is that when I was on tour
, I didn't feel the same spiritual oppression that I did when I was at home. I told my parents about it, but at the time (because of the fact that I was a small child, and I wasn't very good at explaining things) they just thought I was making things up so I could stay up later. It makes sense that I would too, since I was a downright brat when I was little. Fortunately we've moved on from that house, and I've grown as a Christian enough to know how to renounce the spirit of fear in Jesus name, like and any logical Christian would have done.
Anyway, I say all that to say that Demonic oppression via the "spirit of fear" is a very real thing, and I can empathize with those of you who have gone through it. It's also very possibly, and even likely that the sort of fear you were experiencing that one night a while ago, Starflower, was a caused by demonic power and now just simple "nerves". I'd encourage any of you who have struggled with fear to take 2 Timothy 1:7 to heart, and apply it practically when you're faced with fear. We do have a power given too us in the name of Jesus, and when we pray using it, the spirit of fear (and other demonic forces) are required by God's law to obey.
2 Timothy 1:7English Standard Version (ESV)for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.